Fate?

Maybe kah ying was right... maybe i do not really believe in fate... but i do believe there was a period when i believed in fate...

i believe that it was fate that landed me in ACJC because it was my third choice - i had initially wanted NJC... it was also fate that had me make a call to him and thats how everything started to go uphill... when i told him i like him for the first time was also the point when everything changed.. as a result, i probably had the one of the best moments of my teenage life...

from that point onwards, i probably did not believe that fate was what held my relationship together... i believe i gave what i could and i worked for it.. holding on to what i knew i would probably not be able to live without... holding on to smth i knew i wanted...

the more important it is to me... the more unwilling i am to give up trying... but i know things are never as simple as that...

so maybe.. just maybe... i should really try to accept the fact that some things are really fated to be the way they are...

Whatever it is, whatever the reasons are.. That chapter is closed.. I havent got the energy and the time to dwell on it anymore..

Loveactually has got to be my most most most most favourite movie of all time! Such a genius.. and one of my favourite lines has to be one of colin firth's part.. when he said

it's my favourite time of the day.. driving you...

and to which she replied

it's the saddest part of my day.. leaving you...

and hugh grant will always be one of the best actor in movies like this... =)

this movie makes me laugh and cry at the same time.. =)

but for now let me say,

without hope, or agenda..

just because it is christmas,

(and at christmas you tell the truth)

to me, you are perfect..

and my wasted heart will love you..

I know what's at the end of this road.. just wasn't sure if the journey will get easier... there has been changes.. again, just wasn't sure if the changes are for the better... i'm only hoping it will at least be worth something i've always been holding on to...

Pip and Housemates

It's been a while since i last update on Pip... these are some of the photos of him when he was still less than a month old.. still feeding on Pebble's milk... haha so cute...

Pip in Ray's pocket.. He must be feeling very warm and secured.. hehe

Separated Pip from Pebble when he is 2.5 mths old.. So now Pip stays with Whisky.. It's rather difficult to differentiate Whisky from Pip just by looking at the photos actually...

Today Pip jumped into the alfafa bag.. haha.. too freaking inpatient! Pip is always hungry! and he is always very bossy... he has to sit in the feeding bowl to eat.. and poor whisky always have to eat with Pip sitting in the bowl.. Pip forgot that he grew alot alrd and he can be too big for the bowl sometimes...

The rest are just pictures of housemates who went somewhat crazy haha...

being home is always good.. =)

but before this, much had happened.. hwa chin moved out, pip got sick and all of us were so busy with school work.. it was so hectic that for the first time, i had no time to shop for cny clothes at all.. kinda looked forward for this since last november.. just too bad.. haha nvm save money too..

besides fyp there are things like DND and fundraising to do.. and anniversary, birthday and valentines... all cramped into the first three months... then it will be exams and graduation.. sigh.. graduation.. that was something i had looked forward to for the longest time.. but now, seeing how close it is, it's scary... am i ready?

oh! i forgot.. theres a lot of moving to do too! got to move house again this may.. which kinda sucks.. not like the place im staying in is fantastic or anything.. but i hate packing and i moving..

i just want a place where i can stay for long with my chinchillas.. till im married haha!

you know.. cny is a time when my dad's friends will always come to our house and without fail a handful of them will ask me when will i be getting married.. these are the uncles who have been watching me grow since i was young.. initially it was more like a tease and all.. but for the past two three years, they actually meant it.. then i began to think maybe im really getting old.. haha.. so when i replied.. 'soon soon.. maybe in a few more years..' wah then they will start talking abt who's bringing liquor, who's sitting where and things like that.. i think i need to earn more money.. so i can invite all of them..

it had been a rather happy day.. =)