Maybe kah ying was right... maybe i do not really believe in fate... but i do believe there was a period when i believed in fate...
i believe that it was fate that landed me in ACJC because it was my third choice - i had initially wanted NJC... it was also fate that had me make a call to him and thats how everything started to go uphill... when i told him i like him for the first time was also the point when everything changed.. as a result, i probably had the one of the best moments of my teenage life...
from that point onwards, i probably did not believe that fate was what held my relationship together... i believe i gave what i could and i worked for it.. holding on to what i knew i would probably not be able to live without... holding on to smth i knew i wanted...
the more important it is to me... the more unwilling i am to give up trying... but i know things are never as simple as that...
so maybe.. just maybe... i should really try to accept the fact that some things are really fated to be the way they are...
Whatever it is, whatever the reasons are.. That chapter is closed.. I havent got the energy and the time to dwell on it anymore..
