My heart dropped into my stomach for a while..

Today has got to be the best surprise of 2009 for me!! and it came in Facebook! haha.. =)

It's been a year and I still do miss you.. =) 

I can still remember vividly the way you laughed and the way you get excited at the slightest things.. and the way you would babble incessantly about food you love or places you would've loved to go..  

hugs.. 

Taking Steps and Timings

''Whatever happened to the innocence of youth? Maybe we were all too protected but that allowed us to enjoy our carefree school days a lot more without the problems of growing-up life intruding. Why the desire to grow up before their time? Life is painful and complicated enough when you do grow up. So isn't it better to have some innocent pleasures you can look back on when the going gets tough?"

It is indeed complicated growing up. When I was younger, I remember asking myself, when will I ever grow up and start working. I couldn't wait to graduate from school. What I never did realize though, was the fact that once the school life is over, it takes along with it the good times I have with the people around me.. Life was so much simpler then..

I only needed to take care of myself and no one else.. I take care of my own feelings and there was no need to subject myself to self-scrutiny or be bound by any disapproval.. I had the best time of my life with the people I love during my years in schools and boarding schools.. Time and again the memory of those wonderful friends I spent my years with and the crazy things we did will come flooding back, and made me wishing I could turn back time.. I miss the times when I had all the energy to just have carefree fun with just groups and groups of friends..

Inevitably, love sets in before I knew it and the indescribable feeling of being in love for the first time was one of the most wonderful things ever happened.. Those things I thought could only happen in the movies, sometimes they do happen in real life, just sweeter with a dash of surprises because they happen when you least expect it to.. ''To the girl whom I love" will always be a phrase I remember because in that hall filled with so many people, I know how I blushed and I recall how the things around me seems unreal, but I wanted it to last.. That was when the innocence of love ruled.. just as inevitable as love, the responsibilities and pain of being in love sets in as well.. and before I knew it, I was as in a period where I wished everything was unreal.. I wish everything would be back to what it was when I was only a teenager.. I can do without the love and all.. I can be contented with just the friends and family I love around me..

Sometimes I still do wonder, if I had rushed into something I shouldn't.. Sometimes I think the pain is still there, and pain was all that confuses me.. Maybe things would have been clearer if I had given myself more time..

But then again, I learnt that in growing up.. everything is about taking things one step at a time.. I have so many more things ahead of me which I hadn't seen, hadn't gone through.. I was always choosing my steps carefully so that I can always assure myself that I had thought through the best for myself..and I realized that I cannot always rely on that.. I need to learn to let it go and let it happen.. Sometimes I wish I wouldn't think so much, or at least be able to convey my thoughts and channel it the right way..

In one relationship, I learnt that I need to take things as they come.. In another, I learnt that timing is everything..

Though it may seem like it, I am not at all in depression or whatsoever.. just my thoughts when I am left alone.. Let's see if my next post will be less worrisome or depressing..

My E.Maths Teacher

I went to Mrs Anna Tham's place with the girls today.. she was the ex principal of MGS and also my Guide teacher.. We had a conversation..

Me: Oh! you know.. the other time when I was in SGH I saw this lady who looked like Mrs Moses Yew. I didnt dare to say hi although I really wanted to.. but I was afraid that I might be mistaken because this lady wasnt as plump as the Mrs Yew I remembered.. (I have always missed Mrs Yew and her popiah)

Mrs Tham: Could she walk?

Me: The lady was on a wheelchair and a man was pushing her..

Mrs Tham: That could probably be her. She couldnt really walk and she was admited to SGH and that man was probably her husband. She had multiple myeloma and she passed away recently. 16th March.

Me: (I was speechless)

The first thing that hit me was.. oh my god.. I SHOULD have said hi..

Mrs Yew has always been this jolly E.Maths teacher who appeared to be stern in class but she is really, a very nice person with a good heart. She always has this rosy cheeks. There was one time when she invited all the 4A4 scholars over to her place for popiah (which was really good).. We had such a wonderful time with her.. and we had so much fun with her old tortoise car.. she gave us a couple of rounds of lifts to and fro our boarding school to her place..

Now I really miss her.. I should have said hi.. I really should.. I guess that will be one regret that will remain with me for the longest time..

Roaming Tai-Tai

I've been looking forward to the end of pre-reg life for a long time.. especially when my pre-reg days didnt start off like it should.. but over the nine months, I have had my fair share of fun in Parkway and I got to meet really nice people who are now both my mentors and my friends.. So when it finally ended, there was this weight inside me that made me realise that I am going to miss going to work.. but everything has to end someday somewhere.. So my days as a temporarily unemployed pharmacist turned tai tai started!

It was only the first day and I already knew I can never be a tai tai.. I either get engulfed in guilt for shopping too much (there goes the money as well) or I get so tired from roaming around too long too much.. dont get me wrong, I love roaming and hanging around with friends, but everyone I know is working while I am asleep till the sun shone high! I've been watching Friends so much that I felt like I am one of them (Fat Hope, Shiwei said)

I thought maybe walking ard places where I've never been would be interesting and smth I would not get to do when I start working again.. but hey! Mr Sun! you are working too hard!! I was telling the Boyfriend that the crazy weather can culminate in higher crime rates..

But the days got better as some of the girls started to go on leave and I caught up with Shiwei yesterday, and seeing Hui yie tmr.. and I had a good-for-the-heart walks from Bishan-AMK and City Hall-Raffles Place a few days ago.. Cant wait to go home but there's the chinchillas to settle first.. (its all the stupid landlord's incessant yakkings that I cant stand)

So I've learned: I need either alot of money so that I can sustain my contribution to the retail sector or I need to work (with timely breaks - not when everyone is working)

Korea

I have always wanted to put up photos of Korea.. but never really got down to getting that done.. Korea was a nice place.. especially the sceneries and weather.. when I was there with the girls, it was end of spring, beginning of summer but the weather was still cold.. I loved Mount Sorak the best..

So for the moment, I shall put up only a few photos I took in Korea.. until I find time to upload the rest.. haha cos it is tiring waiting for blogger to upload the photos.. it takes really long!

Lots to do, busy but bored..

It had been a while and I was thinking to myself, what is it that I've done the past few weeks or months that I can write about.. and haha, I realised I have done nothing much! How uninteresting.. All I did was work, study, eat and sleep.. work, study, eat and sleep.. I dont like work or study very much.. I love sleep, but thats not something interesting to talk about.. haha so I am left with eating..

Well, I have been eating a lot.. like A LOT.. So I am going to put up some photos of what I ate..

Lao Bei Jing.. and their specialty is apparently popiah.. I dun really like popiah, but I did like the process of wrapping one myself though.. haha but i didnt eat it.. I only make it.. and I must say I am pretty good at wrapping popiah.. Haha it is not easy okay?! the skin is so thin and you need to wrap a monster of fillings in it, sprinkle some stuffs and sweet sauce.. the sweet sauce is the thing that usually soaks the skin, making it so tear-susceptible.. haha..





New York New York Seafood platter and barbecued pork rib..




AbsolutHaven.. I don't remember what these are called.. I only know that the pasta is good..




Food for Thoughts.. somewhere in Bugis.. I was already very full before I entered this place.. but I had to eat something, or else I will be hungry when night falls.. the portion was huge.. and it was full of carbohydrate.. It was nice.. but I was full.. very very full.. and as usual.. I ended up repeating 'I am so full' from after dinner till I got home.. haha as if that will help me digest faster!



My birthday ice cream and birthday cake.. thats last year.. the ice cream was made up of blueberry ice cream, and overwhelming amount of mixed berries and a stick of my favourite chocolate redondo..


Bought a packet of ready-to-eat salad from NTUC.. threw in some tomatoes.. strips of bak kua from home and roasted pumpkin slices.. tossed in some olive oil and vinegar.. I've never ever liked pumpkins, but this day changed my perception of pumpkins.. I had been unfair to them and the likes of them! haha! there are actually really nice.. especially when they are thinly sliced and roasted.. the salad portion turned out HUMONGOUS! I've never eaten so much vegetables one shot before.. but you cant keep them once you've made them.. I was tired of chewing after a while.. haha


My birthday cake.. A really nice birthday cake..


Salad number 2 was different.. this time it is more fruity.. with lots of oranges and strawberries.. slices of pumpkins and eggs too.. this time either I was not too full to begin with, or the portion was just nice.. but the strawberries, my goodness it was so so sour.. there was half a packet left.. we have no idea what to do with it cos it was so sour.. Even tried boiling it! but it was of no use of course.. haha.. so in the end we finished it with muffins and brownies from Chocolat 'n' Spice..




So the strawberries were served with the muffins and brownie.. in a ceramic Disney plate Sze Min bought for 2 dollars the night before.. It is a really nice tigger plate for only 2 dollars.. heh