Dying blog

linsey said my blog is dying and it is getting depressing.. i couldnt agree more.. but then again, whats there to update in my life that might interest ppl anyway haha.. but I shall try someday soon..

i am going to miss you.. really really miss you.. thank you for everything... from the very first day we met to the day we bade farewell..

i promised i will see you again.. im sorry i was a little late this time..

you were my lab partner, my chinese class partner, my camp partner, my roommate... i practically see you more than i see any of the other girls..

i hope you are really in a better place.. at least i know you wont be in so much pain anymore..

i miss you.. i really do..

i really really do...

My graduation day

and there I was, 3 months ago... thinking that 'How can 2 invitations be enough..?'

Now.. 'Who wants extra invitations?'

pain

my right shoulder hurts.. my cervical bone is still giving me pain.. and there was this sharp sudden pulsing pain on the left side of my skull two nites ago.. definitely not migraine.. cos i dun think migraine is like that..

injured my right knee from the last camp.. the pain is still there.. the pain behind my knees are perpetually there due to the constant need to stand during work.. plasters all over my feet due to the shoes.. and plasters on my hands due to blister pack cuts and paper cuts..

=S

We shall grow old together...

and we shall do this again.. and if i do get lucky like what happened on this day.. we shall really buy 4D.. =)

Missing you very much.. Lots of hugs and love always..

Fate?

Maybe kah ying was right... maybe i do not really believe in fate... but i do believe there was a period when i believed in fate...

i believe that it was fate that landed me in ACJC because it was my third choice - i had initially wanted NJC... it was also fate that had me make a call to him and thats how everything started to go uphill... when i told him i like him for the first time was also the point when everything changed.. as a result, i probably had the one of the best moments of my teenage life...

from that point onwards, i probably did not believe that fate was what held my relationship together... i believe i gave what i could and i worked for it.. holding on to what i knew i would probably not be able to live without... holding on to smth i knew i wanted...

the more important it is to me... the more unwilling i am to give up trying... but i know things are never as simple as that...

so maybe.. just maybe... i should really try to accept the fact that some things are really fated to be the way they are...

Whatever it is, whatever the reasons are.. That chapter is closed.. I havent got the energy and the time to dwell on it anymore..